Erin. 24.

I feel like I've always been able to share myself better through writing. It allows me the time to put my emotions into the right words, which is hard to do. It's also something I haven't done in a very long time.

I'm going into my 25th year of life, which is scary in it's own respect. I think back to when I was little, think about what dreams I had hoped to accomplish by now. After all, 25 is old ya know, or at least I'm constantly reminded of that by my 17 year old sister... But the truth is, aging never scared me. I was never worried I'd grow old without finding love, I always pictured myself as successful, and overall, aging was something that excited me. And then, I was here.

About 2 months ago I put in my 2 weeks notice at the job I had for the past 5 years. That was, the scariest thing I have ever done. That job was insane, crazy, and diminishing to my self esteem, but it was security. It is also is where I learned everything I know about business and Real Estate. I had been trying to leave for past 2 years, but always chickened out at the last moment for one reason or another. Then I finally reached the point where being referred to as the Receptionist, while I'm managing files and clients of my own, and being thrown under the bus by the managers after I did precisely what I was asked of, became, just not OK. What I didn't realize is what an effect that kind of environment was doing in my personal life. The minute I got off the phone with my boss, turning down her counter offer for me to stay (funny enough, I was the worst employee she's ever had once I left...), it was like an overwhelming punch of confidence and freedom. I was on top of the world.

And then there was him.

I met him while still in my youth, and now, 6 years later, I was ending my life with him. I'm not even sure how it got there, I felt so overwhelmed that I needed to know if we had a future. He said we did, and I realized I wasn't sure. He never wronged me, he only loved me. We were that "perfect" couple. Our friends mourned over our lost relationship. And I moved home.

Erin. 24. This is my life, unscripted.